OMG.
tuesday. THE day!!
last presentation.
last report.
hopefully... last interview too?
and WAH.
YELLOWSTONE.
ONE more month. ONE!!!
I'm really, finally ... graduating...
I'm starting to miss some school stuff... = \
Ooops. Not a good time to reminisce now when I have work staring at my face. Talk about this again! hehe
Oh before I leave, I have to self-declare to everyone... I'm a goondo blur pok man!!! *slaps forehead* I actually went down to AMK Hub today thinking that the Work & Travel briefing was held there. To my horror, I realised it's HDB HUB at Toa Payoh instead, after 3 calls to Wen Yee. OMG!!! How the hell did I get the location wrong when I've checked the directions quite a number of times? The location was even saved in my calendar note sia. JO!!! pok!!!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Mount Jo has stopped spewing smoke and larva.
gah.
Was looking at the previous posts and I realised how angsty I sounded. I apologize for that folks. Hope I din scare you guys! hehe. Not to worry, I have "found peace" and I feel mucccccccccccccch better = ) Thanks to all who were concerned. Thanks to all who were there to listen. Thanks to those who bothered to explain. *winks*
It's interesting how little little things could escalate to sth so… absurd. I’m looking at this issue again, with a more clear-headed view… Though I want to forget and move on, there are still bugging thoughts and I want to get it out of my head, and hopefully after I’ve done so, I can just focus on what I should be focusing on (my workload is piling and deadlines are pressing nearer and nearer). *gasps*
I’ve been thinking, as usual… The “What Ifs.” Perhaps, this wouldn’t have happened,
a) If … GG hadn’t acted that way to piss pple off? [but GG’s attitude could have possibly been for the better if pple had the courage to feedback to her about it, and that she was willing to change]
b) If … EY hadn’t brought this up during the debrief? [but if he hadn’t brought this up, would someone else be pissed at her instead and causing others and himself to suffer silently]
c) If … I didn’t approach GG to feedback to her? [but then she would never learn, and pple would just continue to be pisssed with her.]
d) If… CQ wasn’t around as GG, SO and I were talking about this [but it could have been ANYONE. Coz GG would definitely keep asking pple until she gets her answer. Sorry babe, just plain suay. Wrong place, wrong time. = \]
e) If… the note hadn’t been posted on FB. [well well. But well, people have different ways of expressing their displeasure… Maybe privatized it next time? Haha hopefully no more next time… hehe ]
f) If… I din request CQ to clarify this issue… then she wouldn’t have to be involved in all this drama. [but SO would then be the scapegoat. She wouldn’t be … “exonerated”. GOSH.]
g) If… I din try to find out why SO was involved? [but I probably wouldn’t be able to sleep at night if I knew what others were saying and I knew those weren’t facts…]
h) If… EY had thought through this entire thing rationally before jumping to conclusions… and if he was calmed enough to hear my explanations… and hadn’t used mean descriptive words… [… … … ]
i) If… I hadn’t reciprocated with mean words myself… [I am not proud of myself for saying this. I was fuming. REALLY fuming. ]
j) If… I had approached EY to discuss this first before speaking with GG. [yeah. Maybe this would have been better… right?]
k) If... People were a little more understanding and showed appreciation of all the hardwork GG had done, or showed acknowledgement to all other folks who had worked their ass off for the club/HRYF... If they had weighed the pros and cons of their actions... If they had not judged a person by the things that were done disapprovingly and had not ignored the beautiful side of the things that had been done...
… I think the list can go on and on and on…
Just too bad!!! 各有各的错! Hope after their moments of reflections, everybody will反省and realize how stupid we have been to be mad at each other. Where is the love!
My ‘aunty’ came. Well, about time too. Considering that I have gone through an emotionally draining journey over the past weeks. One moment I am in lala land. …next moment I am feeling blue… Then I suddenly found thrilled and YAY!!! Before I know it, Mount Josephine erupted.
What an interesting, dramatic March. Definitely one of the most exciting things which happened in Uni. LOL.
Was looking at the previous posts and I realised how angsty I sounded. I apologize for that folks. Hope I din scare you guys! hehe. Not to worry, I have "found peace" and I feel mucccccccccccccch better = ) Thanks to all who were concerned. Thanks to all who were there to listen. Thanks to those who bothered to explain. *winks*
It's interesting how little little things could escalate to sth so… absurd. I’m looking at this issue again, with a more clear-headed view… Though I want to forget and move on, there are still bugging thoughts and I want to get it out of my head, and hopefully after I’ve done so, I can just focus on what I should be focusing on (my workload is piling and deadlines are pressing nearer and nearer). *gasps*
I’ve been thinking, as usual… The “What Ifs.” Perhaps, this wouldn’t have happened,
a) If … GG hadn’t acted that way to piss pple off? [but GG’s attitude could have possibly been for the better if pple had the courage to feedback to her about it, and that she was willing to change]
b) If … EY hadn’t brought this up during the debrief? [but if he hadn’t brought this up, would someone else be pissed at her instead and causing others and himself to suffer silently]
c) If … I didn’t approach GG to feedback to her? [but then she would never learn, and pple would just continue to be pisssed with her.]
d) If… CQ wasn’t around as GG, SO and I were talking about this [but it could have been ANYONE. Coz GG would definitely keep asking pple until she gets her answer. Sorry babe, just plain suay. Wrong place, wrong time. = \]
e) If… the note hadn’t been posted on FB. [well well. But well, people have different ways of expressing their displeasure… Maybe privatized it next time? Haha hopefully no more next time… hehe ]
f) If… I din request CQ to clarify this issue… then she wouldn’t have to be involved in all this drama. [but SO would then be the scapegoat. She wouldn’t be … “exonerated”. GOSH.]
g) If… I din try to find out why SO was involved? [but I probably wouldn’t be able to sleep at night if I knew what others were saying and I knew those weren’t facts…]
h) If… EY had thought through this entire thing rationally before jumping to conclusions… and if he was calmed enough to hear my explanations… and hadn’t used mean descriptive words… [… … … ]
i) If… I hadn’t reciprocated with mean words myself… [I am not proud of myself for saying this. I was fuming. REALLY fuming. ]
j) If… I had approached EY to discuss this first before speaking with GG. [yeah. Maybe this would have been better… right?]
k) If... People were a little more understanding and showed appreciation of all the hardwork GG had done, or showed acknowledgement to all other folks who had worked their ass off for the club/HRYF... If they had weighed the pros and cons of their actions... If they had not judged a person by the things that were done disapprovingly and had not ignored the beautiful side of the things that had been done...
… I think the list can go on and on and on…
Just too bad!!! 各有各的错! Hope after their moments of reflections, everybody will反省and realize how stupid we have been to be mad at each other. Where is the love!
My ‘aunty’ came. Well, about time too. Considering that I have gone through an emotionally draining journey over the past weeks. One moment I am in lala land. …next moment I am feeling blue… Then I suddenly found thrilled and YAY!!! Before I know it, Mount Josephine erupted.
What an interesting, dramatic March. Definitely one of the most exciting things which happened in Uni. LOL.
Monday, March 23, 2009
case closed - an entry dedicated to the dog expert
what the hell.
i hope this is the last entry i'm making with regard to this incident.
i received the reply this morning and it made my blood boil... i had to leave the house and breathe some fresh air and smell nature again. would have continued jogging if i din feel my prata bouncing up and down in my stomach.
i hope this post reaches his ears somehow, coz apparently my email was a wasted attempt. i'm considering facebook note. but that's how the problem escalated.... but i so want pple to hear my side of the story!!~!!~~!!
did i blame anybody? no. (except you now)
did i do wrong? YES, i admit. but not for voicing out my opinion though. i would have said it again. but probably in a different manner. but at least i 敢做敢当. i dare to say and acknoweledge that i said it. yourself? subtle, sacartic remarks, and acting like u are the victim.
did i use any sacarstics remarks on others? no. i certainly wouldn't go around saying who's a dog, who's a lackey, who's rotten. (except to you now, and i am not exactly sorry about that. coz mine is pale in comparison to yours. u are the king of sacarsm i realised...)
did i apologize? YES.u didn't. for all the things u said, and for all the pple u wronged.
did i bother finding out the truth. YES. which u didn't. u just conveniently assumed.
did i bother explaning? YES. but it fell on deaf ears. 对牛弹琴. a plain waste of my efforts and time.
so i shall not waste my energy, time, tears, and risk of any internal health effects on a stupid bull like u. go be a vet lah, since u are such a doggy expert. u have stepped on my tail, so stay away from me, if not i will bite u. BARK!!!
and dear friends, don't worry. i will be fine. i won't be doing anything stupid = ) my volcano has erupted, but once the larva as ... i dunno... harden? ... i am good. =)
cheers to a productive day. i need to be productive today, and for the rest of the week. so many stuff left undone, i shan't spend another minute on this stupid, petty, incident and a stupid, petty bull.
i hope this is the last entry i'm making with regard to this incident.
i received the reply this morning and it made my blood boil... i had to leave the house and breathe some fresh air and smell nature again. would have continued jogging if i din feel my prata bouncing up and down in my stomach.
i hope this post reaches his ears somehow, coz apparently my email was a wasted attempt. i'm considering facebook note. but that's how the problem escalated.... but i so want pple to hear my side of the story!!~!!~~!!
did i blame anybody? no. (except you now)
did i do wrong? YES, i admit. but not for voicing out my opinion though. i would have said it again. but probably in a different manner. but at least i 敢做敢当. i dare to say and acknoweledge that i said it. yourself? subtle, sacartic remarks, and acting like u are the victim.
did i use any sacarstics remarks on others? no. i certainly wouldn't go around saying who's a dog, who's a lackey, who's rotten. (except to you now, and i am not exactly sorry about that. coz mine is pale in comparison to yours. u are the king of sacarsm i realised...)
did i apologize? YES.u didn't. for all the things u said, and for all the pple u wronged.
did i bother finding out the truth. YES. which u didn't. u just conveniently assumed.
did i bother explaning? YES. but it fell on deaf ears. 对牛弹琴. a plain waste of my efforts and time.
so i shall not waste my energy, time, tears, and risk of any internal health effects on a stupid bull like u. go be a vet lah, since u are such a doggy expert. u have stepped on my tail, so stay away from me, if not i will bite u. BARK!!!
and dear friends, don't worry. i will be fine. i won't be doing anything stupid = ) my volcano has erupted, but once the larva as ... i dunno... harden? ... i am good. =)
cheers to a productive day. i need to be productive today, and for the rest of the week. so many stuff left undone, i shan't spend another minute on this stupid, petty, incident and a stupid, petty bull.
a series of unfortunate events
what a night. i haven't felt this way in awhile! ok the recent softball thing was different. that was for fighting what we deserve. but this.... this brings back memories of what happened when i was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay younger, 12? but back then, hormones were unstable, we were young and childish.
at 22, aren't we suppose to act maturely, like adults?
i super disappointed in someone whom i've considered to be a great fren. maybe i din know him that well after all. but since i started this in a way, i saw the need to at least attempt to clear the misunderstandings. what would u do if the other party wouldn't listen?
msn din work. in fact, msn kinda revealed his true colours. was that his true colours? petty? sacarstic? immature? childish? or was it just a moment of anger... yes yes yes, he has the right to be angry. but i dun see how this has given him to right to behave the way he has. it's appalling, and very very disappointing. i've pissed about his insensitivity, his immature choice of words. where is the charismatic, gentleman that I know (or I thought I know)?
i wonder whether if he would reply to the email.
and i dunno if i want him to reply at all. if he replies, i do hope to see some sincere apology. but anyway, things will never be the same again.
darn.
what a way to end the term, and after an event which we had worked hard for.
and pple are telling me to be wary and less trusting of others. sigh. why can't pple be more simple?
at 22, aren't we suppose to act maturely, like adults?
i super disappointed in someone whom i've considered to be a great fren. maybe i din know him that well after all. but since i started this in a way, i saw the need to at least attempt to clear the misunderstandings. what would u do if the other party wouldn't listen?
msn din work. in fact, msn kinda revealed his true colours. was that his true colours? petty? sacarstic? immature? childish? or was it just a moment of anger... yes yes yes, he has the right to be angry. but i dun see how this has given him to right to behave the way he has. it's appalling, and very very disappointing. i've pissed about his insensitivity, his immature choice of words. where is the charismatic, gentleman that I know (or I thought I know)?
i wonder whether if he would reply to the email.
and i dunno if i want him to reply at all. if he replies, i do hope to see some sincere apology. but anyway, things will never be the same again.
darn.
what a way to end the term, and after an event which we had worked hard for.
and pple are telling me to be wary and less trusting of others. sigh. why can't pple be more simple?
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
happy birthday to me!
HEHEHE! I had a wonderful bday!
Was at open house in the morning. Seeing those eager students enquiring about the various courses offered in NTU is quite ... .... nice? And as I was explaining about business and promoting NBS, I realised I do like the school! haha! Although projects are realllllllllllllly tiring and energy sapping, but i think it's quite a good experience!!! (i think i'm saying this now largely due to the fact that i'm graduating soon. like in less than a month's time? LOL) But then.... as I was walking around the booths... i think that engineering, arts, sciences ... all very WOW man... They had visible 'outputs' to display to people... robots, art pieces, interesting gadgets. Damn cool!!! I can't imagine myself being the producer or inventor of such things... Oh wells. haha!
Anyway after open house, I went to JP with Kenny. I got myself a new pair of specs! = ) And a nice new watch = ) We had a nice peranakan dinner (called Spice Peranakan) hidden somewhere in a corner Bukit Timah Shopping Centre... Oh but they are moving already, and i realised i forgot where they said they are moving to. oops! After dinner.. ah. Unfortunately (or fortunately, hehe) it was raining ... so my bday celebration 'party' was held under some hdb block. hohoho! = )
On sunday, I met up with Xiao Wen. We went down to the supreme court to catch the Living Courthouse event. Quite fun!!! And pretty interesting! The ending of the criminal trial enactment of "Who Pushed Humpty?" could have been better though... But anyway, the both of us were taking pictures everywhere we went. I felt like a tourist seriously. We were even willing to queue for an hour just to have that one min of 'fame' - dress up as a judge. We were so excited that we forgot all about the eeky, eerie stories bout kutu? (head lice?) Pics are up in fb!
After spending like close to FIVE hours, we rushed down to funan to grab dinner coz we were famished!!! And then we made our way down to Suntec... We are nuts. Both xw and I dun really have anything to buy, but somehow we feel the need to pop down to the IT fair to squeeze with the crowd. Pok. Ok, at least we din leave the fair empty handed... if not we would be super pok.
YAY. Had my moment of fun and relaxation. Now it's time to cheong my HR project already! Report and presentation due in two weeks, and we haven't type a single word (actually we haven't even exactly discussed) hohoohoh WOOTS! Exciting.
But strangely, I feel fine. Not feeling the nerves, for now at least. And I kinda like this 'yay, relax" feeling. And I like working in this group too. All 'yay, relaxing' pple, but able to get work done. We rock.
haha!
Exams in less than a month! Yellowstone in bout 1 1/2 months!
Was at open house in the morning. Seeing those eager students enquiring about the various courses offered in NTU is quite ... .... nice? And as I was explaining about business and promoting NBS, I realised I do like the school! haha! Although projects are realllllllllllllly tiring and energy sapping, but i think it's quite a good experience!!! (i think i'm saying this now largely due to the fact that i'm graduating soon. like in less than a month's time? LOL) But then.... as I was walking around the booths... i think that engineering, arts, sciences ... all very WOW man... They had visible 'outputs' to display to people... robots, art pieces, interesting gadgets. Damn cool!!! I can't imagine myself being the producer or inventor of such things... Oh wells. haha!
Anyway after open house, I went to JP with Kenny. I got myself a new pair of specs! = ) And a nice new watch = ) We had a nice peranakan dinner (called Spice Peranakan) hidden somewhere in a corner Bukit Timah Shopping Centre... Oh but they are moving already, and i realised i forgot where they said they are moving to. oops! After dinner.. ah. Unfortunately (or fortunately, hehe) it was raining ... so my bday celebration 'party' was held under some hdb block. hohoho! = )
On sunday, I met up with Xiao Wen. We went down to the supreme court to catch the Living Courthouse event. Quite fun!!! And pretty interesting! The ending of the criminal trial enactment of "Who Pushed Humpty?" could have been better though... But anyway, the both of us were taking pictures everywhere we went. I felt like a tourist seriously. We were even willing to queue for an hour just to have that one min of 'fame' - dress up as a judge. We were so excited that we forgot all about the eeky, eerie stories bout kutu? (head lice?) Pics are up in fb!
After spending like close to FIVE hours, we rushed down to funan to grab dinner coz we were famished!!! And then we made our way down to Suntec... We are nuts. Both xw and I dun really have anything to buy, but somehow we feel the need to pop down to the IT fair to squeeze with the crowd. Pok. Ok, at least we din leave the fair empty handed... if not we would be super pok.
YAY. Had my moment of fun and relaxation. Now it's time to cheong my HR project already! Report and presentation due in two weeks, and we haven't type a single word (actually we haven't even exactly discussed) hohoohoh WOOTS! Exciting.
But strangely, I feel fine. Not feeling the nerves, for now at least. And I kinda like this 'yay, relax" feeling. And I like working in this group too. All 'yay, relaxing' pple, but able to get work done. We rock.
haha!
Exams in less than a month! Yellowstone in bout 1 1/2 months!
Friday, March 13, 2009
A WOW, NICE, SLACK DAY
I haven't had the chance to slack THIS MUCH in a long while! I woke up at 11+ this morning... WOW. Other than laundry, I really dunno what I did. Before i know it, it's already 2+ pm. So I went swimming with Chewy. We same for bout half an hour, and then chit chat in the pool for almost 45 mins! NICE. Then i came back, bathe blah blah. Dunno do what.. then it's dinner time! Pig drove teddy and me out to Can9 and we had steamboat dinner. hehe! After dinner come back... dunno do what again, and it's already 1120pm! WOW.
ok actually the 'dunno do what' consists of msn, facebook, email, msn, facebook, email. i.e. slacking. i've got 6 letters to describe the day. S-H-U-A-N-G ! i could have used the day to look through my hrc project or my job search, but i din have the motivation at all. oh wells. soon soon! hehehe
Anyway i realised this week has been kinda like an emotional rollercoaster. (hmm ok sounds a bit odd, but u get the point, ya?) I've experienced stress, elation, excitement, blues, disappointment, delight, joy ... I wonder whether I'm putting my body through tremendous stress by confusing it with my emotions. LOL
Was feeling a little blue on Thurs night... And before I know it, I was beeming with joy, coz my hall 3 softballers sprang me with a beautifully designed handmade cake for me!!! I LOVE IT. Pics are up in facebook :(http://www.facebook.com/wall.php?id=604561077&banter_id=508742420&ref=nf&show_all#/album.php?aid=71424&id=665117378)
Thank ladies! and Ah gong! And especially Porpor, Kexin & Wan Ting! = )
But the night didn't end there. We popped over to Yuling's room to eat cake and chit chat. There were serious moments, happy moments, funny moments, "hai" moments. We chatted till 2am plus... hahaha! NICE.
But okie yay, at least i'm going to bed in a tired, but happy state. = )
Happy Birthday to me! =)
ok actually the 'dunno do what' consists of msn, facebook, email, msn, facebook, email. i.e. slacking. i've got 6 letters to describe the day. S-H-U-A-N-G ! i could have used the day to look through my hrc project or my job search, but i din have the motivation at all. oh wells. soon soon! hehehe
Anyway i realised this week has been kinda like an emotional rollercoaster. (hmm ok sounds a bit odd, but u get the point, ya?) I've experienced stress, elation, excitement, blues, disappointment, delight, joy ... I wonder whether I'm putting my body through tremendous stress by confusing it with my emotions. LOL
Was feeling a little blue on Thurs night... And before I know it, I was beeming with joy, coz my hall 3 softballers sprang me with a beautifully designed handmade cake for me!!! I LOVE IT. Pics are up in facebook :(http://www.facebook.com/wall.php?id=604561077&banter_id=508742420&ref=nf&show_all#/album.php?aid=71424&id=665117378)
Thank ladies! and Ah gong! And especially Porpor, Kexin & Wan Ting! = )
But the night didn't end there. We popped over to Yuling's room to eat cake and chit chat. There were serious moments, happy moments, funny moments, "hai" moments. We chatted till 2am plus... hahaha! NICE.
But okie yay, at least i'm going to bed in a tired, but happy state. = )
Happy Birthday to me! =)
Thursday, March 12, 2009
OMG OMG!!!
wheeeeeeeee!
I've finally submitted my FYP = ) = ) = )
As I was looking through the final draft last night (at bout 3am), I was DAMN excited. hehehe It's amazing to look back and realise that wow, we have survived those shitty times. haha! Hope the grades we get would be decent at least.
I never, if i have the choice, ever, want to do a intensive research-related work. YAWN!!!
Anyway the past 2 weeks have been pretty interesting. Despite chiong-ing for fyp and my law assignment, I was occupied by other zhar-pa-lang things! I've attended 2 -3 hall related events (and spent a long time hanging out at those events ... sth which I never really ever do, and would not considering doing, for the past 2 years). It's pretty nice to take a break amidst the 'busy-ness'. But i realised, besides fyp, I've been VERY slack this semester. I love it. haha~!
The past two nights had been rather... interesting .... There's this Team of the Year hall award. For the past two years, I didn't really think much of this award. But our expectations were raised greatly coz we feel that we were deserving of the title this year. So when I found out that my softball team didn't clinch this award, I was disappointed. But I was like "ahh.. ok lor... too bad... nvm lo..." But after talking to my team mates then I realised ok... no, it is indeed quite a BIG deal.
I have to admit that I was influenced by how hard my team took the news. So two nights ago, I got two seniors and we approached the sports sec in the middle of the night at like 12am to talk about this matter... We weren't interested in appealing but we felt that the board owes the team an explanation as to how the decision had been reached.
Ok, so last night, the softball team had a long 1 1/2 'meeting' with the board. And man, i tell u, the words I can think of to describe the meeting are ... emotional, heated, funny (at times.. thanks to por and charmaine), and of course, the nice feeling of warmth and togetherness. I haven't felt this way in awhile... the feeling of 'fighting' for what you want and believe in.
We don't need a Team of the Year title, coz we know we already are. = )
I've finally submitted my FYP = ) = ) = )
As I was looking through the final draft last night (at bout 3am), I was DAMN excited. hehehe It's amazing to look back and realise that wow, we have survived those shitty times. haha! Hope the grades we get would be decent at least.
I never, if i have the choice, ever, want to do a intensive research-related work. YAWN!!!
Anyway the past 2 weeks have been pretty interesting. Despite chiong-ing for fyp and my law assignment, I was occupied by other zhar-pa-lang things! I've attended 2 -3 hall related events (and spent a long time hanging out at those events ... sth which I never really ever do, and would not considering doing, for the past 2 years). It's pretty nice to take a break amidst the 'busy-ness'. But i realised, besides fyp, I've been VERY slack this semester. I love it. haha~!
The past two nights had been rather... interesting .... There's this Team of the Year hall award. For the past two years, I didn't really think much of this award. But our expectations were raised greatly coz we feel that we were deserving of the title this year. So when I found out that my softball team didn't clinch this award, I was disappointed. But I was like "ahh.. ok lor... too bad... nvm lo..." But after talking to my team mates then I realised ok... no, it is indeed quite a BIG deal.
I have to admit that I was influenced by how hard my team took the news. So two nights ago, I got two seniors and we approached the sports sec in the middle of the night at like 12am to talk about this matter... We weren't interested in appealing but we felt that the board owes the team an explanation as to how the decision had been reached.
Ok, so last night, the softball team had a long 1 1/2 'meeting' with the board. And man, i tell u, the words I can think of to describe the meeting are ... emotional, heated, funny (at times.. thanks to por and charmaine), and of course, the nice feeling of warmth and togetherness. I haven't felt this way in awhile... the feeling of 'fighting' for what you want and believe in.
We don't need a Team of the Year title, coz we know we already are. = )
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